I really don’t like hotels; it’s very cold. But that’s the best already. That’s why if I have to go, I go there. Because they’re so funny, these people, very funny. […] So, when I came home one time from the president’s funeral, Slovenia’s president’s funeral, I was exhausted and feeling like choked in the neck or being in the coffin. And I came to the hotel because I couldn’t stay at home. […] Immediately I came and I told them, “I’m very tired. I don’t know what to do. Give me a room, any room.” And immediately one told the other, “Go buy this, go buy that for Her. She’s tired. She will drink this. She will drink that.” […]
I hope that after I tell you many things today, that you understand my difficulty, real difficulty. Not the difficulty of the guy from Canada, the one that he just expressed – that he had to change supervisor. Oh, what a pity. Not that kind, but I do have difficulty. Understand that? (Yes.) I trust that you understand from today, so that you can be my friends, at least support mentally. And that you don’t make my job more difficult than it is. I truly have to fight all sides, and all the time. This is visible, physical, you can see. There’s some invisible you don’t see, also troubles a lot.
The negative power doesn’t always come in the form of an assistant or a driver, or the person who tried to kill me like that, but it comes also in the form of some insects, animals. Insects, easily go in my room to trouble, and they bite me everywhere. You don’t see it because I put some makeup on, but otherwise, you can see it’s red, and it’s very itchy, itchy. Today I was panicky for some itching cream because I couldn’t bear anymore. I kept scratching because today it got worse, for example like that.
The negative power doesn’t always manifest in the form of humans, or in the form of your neighbor – oh, my neighbor also. Oh, I “love” that guy. In the beginning, when I first bought the house, not this one. Wow, all the things they wrote about me in the newspaper, I could hardly recognize. Who are they talking about? It cannot be me because nothing looks like me, nothing sounds like me. Does it sound anything like me there? Did you read the newspaper around here? (No.) Oh, if you didn’t, then don’t bother. I didn’t even read it. She told me that they took a photo of a white person lying on the ground, right? And then, what else? (That was the only one, like a bed sheet cover.) On the bed sheet cover lying on the ground. And then they said we were sharing some little thing, it’s like a secret formula stuff. And I don’t know, they said all kinds of things that I frequent a private beach in Monaco; I go to nightclubs a lot. Yeah, yeah. And I stay in first-class hotels all the time. Wow, wait until they see my real first-class cave. It’d be a shock to their life.
My neighbors, oh, you don’t know. Before you came, there was “BY” – before you, I had peace, no problem at all. And after you – “AY.” “BY” was complete peace and quiet. Even in Monaco, they loved me so much; even the waiters and all the valets, we made jokes with each other all the time. Sometimes I came out, everybody’s open and opened the door and did stupid things. And then, somebody kneeled on the floor and said, “Hi, Madame the Holy,” whatever. They saw my aura. So, we were having very much fun. But I didn’t stay there long, of course. I told you already I rented the place sometimes for internet and all that because it’s first-class, very fast.
And then, sometimes they made jokes. They told me, the one valet told about the other, “Madame, he has a tattoo, secret tattoo. But You can’t see it.” So I said, “Just tell me where.” I was joking with them. “Tell me where.” He said, “Oh, I don’t dare.” I said, “Never mind, try me.” He said, “It’s behind, on the bottom.” I said, “Oh, that’s nothing. And then they were teasing each other and said, “Put the shirt up, so She can see.” And he pretended, “No, no!” They were doing this kind of thing to me. I said, “Oh, never mind, look at mine!” I was just joking, I had nothing, of course. But I lifted my trousers a little bit and everybody was laughing, just like this. I said, “OK. I’ll show you an example.” And everybody was laughing. And the manager saw what was going on, she came out and said, “What’s going on over here?” I said, “Nothing, ma’am, they’re trying to cheat me!” “I am a lone woman and all of these men, they’re trying to ‘harass’ me.”
We were just joking, and then we all laughed. All the time like this, similar situation. And when I left the hotel, they bought me flowers and gifts. The workers, the valets and the bellboys and all that, and they stood in two lines to send me off. Such a beautiful hotel. Wonderful! I really like it very much. I don’t stay there often, you know that. I really don’t like hotels; it’s very cold. But that’s the best already. That’s why if I have to go, I go there. Because they’re so funny, these people, very funny. Trying to show the tattoo which didn’t exist, so I also said, “I got one!” I don’t have, of course. Just to make fun, and they liked it so much.
So, when I came home one time from the president’s funeral, Slovenia’s president’s funeral, I was exhausted and feeling like choked in the neck or being in the coffin. And I came to the hotel because I couldn’t stay at home. I felt like I was in the coffin all the time. It was so scary. I went there because some of my assistants said, “OK, maybe you go out a little bit of this house, and you’ll feel better.” And I had nowhere else to go, so I went there for a few days. Immediately I came and I told them, “I’m very tired. I don’t know what to do. Give me a room, any room.” And immediately one told the other, “Go buy this, go buy that for Her. She’s tired. She will drink this. She will drink that.”
You know, the things that they knew, these simple people. They said, “Go buy vervain.” You know, like one of those like calming teas. Yeah, so touching. That’s all they knew, but, “Go buy this for Her. Make it now!” They told each other to do it. They were not even waiters, just the bellboys who brought my luggage. But when they saw me slumped on the sofa, they said, “Go buy vervain and tell somebody to come massage Her!” I said, “No, no, no. Thank you, no. Vervain, OK. Massage, no.” They had handsome boys with six-packs. Muscular. With the folding table, you know, boom! And then you lay there, and they’d make you feel like a queen. But I said, “Vervain, OK. Massage, no.” Because I knew, I saw them. You know, I saw the boys. Anyway, that’s how kind they are, these simple working people. I like them a lot. But I think many of them are retired now. There was one Indian guy also. He was very polite when he drove me around, very polite. So good, so good.
Why do I tell you these things? (“Before you.” “After you.”) Ah, yeah! Before you. So, “BY (before you)” was like that. Neighbors were also very polite, very nice, very friendly. And “AY (after you)” was like, the newspapers, the neighbors, the police, the helicopter, the gun to the head, the body search, the house search, all kinds of things. Search everywhere I went even, not just one house. They just followed me everywhere, even rental apartment, anything. It was really a scary time. Not just a one-time search, but repeatedly. And every time, like 40 police or at least 12, a dozen. But why did I say that? What was it before? (Your neighbor.) Ah, the neighbor.
OK. So now, the neighbor, he, after that, AY (“after you”) time, he came, always lurking around and checking on us and reporting to the police all the time. The police kept coming all the time. I just had a few disciples come visit, not really visit but doing some videos. I didn’t have a team at that time, so some of them came from L.A. (Los Angeles) to do the poetry, the Aulacese (Vietnamese) poetry that I recited. I did it nearby here, in a house. And what happened? Oh, the police came every day, checking them down there and checking up there. They were legal, all legal. They came with the tourist visa. They can stay three months, so no problem. Americans and English, no problem. But because of that, oh, my God. I was in the house, but because the police thought I was not there, so they didn’t come in. They just checked them and checked everywhere else. They didn’t check my room.
And at night, because they had to go soon, I had to block all the windows with sleeping bags. Stuffy like that. Doors, windows, all the cracks, I had to block, in order to… Because the neighbor reported it, that’s why the police came. And they stayed outside even, around the street, around the corner, around the mountain. So at night, I had to work with the reciting to finish so that they could go. And then, we blocked all the windows with sleeping bags and with aluminum stuff, so that this kind of light didn’t come out. And I was sweating while I recited the Aulacese (Vietnamese) poetry, some of it. You know, the one with a winter hat and winter in Paris, that’s the one. But did you see me look scared? I was scared. If I wasn’t scared, I wouldn’t block the windows, I wouldn’t stay in the house, and didn’t dare to go out, for example like that. All because of the neighbor. And that was not enough, he continued.
He continued to do that all the time. And then a thief also came, broke the door and tried to steal things or tried to find me, to look for me, because at that time, there was one disciple staying in my house. She had blonde hair like me. And I stayed in the upper level; she stayed in the lower level. And they came, broke into her house, because they thought it was me. Used a knife and all that. Luckily, she wasn’t… No, no, she was in the house. She was in the room. Later, she told me. And then suddenly the neighbor, the other neighbor, the nice neighbor... There was an Italian neighbor and a French neighbor. The French neighbor is the one causing all trouble, all this time. Suddenly, the nice neighbor was coming home from work. He came late, shining a big light, and the thief, or whoever wanted to kill us, ran away. That’s not only one time. It kept repeating. So, I couldn’t stay in that house even, after a while.
And even after I left, the disciples stayed there still, and they called me, “Oh, Master! Somebody keeps coming and blah blah blah... So scary.” So, I even had to move them all to the upper level into my house, to stay in my house. These people are still here. Not in this assembly, but... So, I had to say, “OK, OK, take all your things, go up and stay in my room, in my house.” Because there are two levels, the mountain, there are two levels – one level upper and the street in the middle, and the neighbor lives at the end of the street, and the other neighbor lives below my land. And the disciples live on the lower level of the mountain, the other side of the street, and I live on the upper. The lower is nicer, you can see the sea view fully. The upper level is more obscured, obstructed. But the main house is there, so I stayed there, and they stayed down there, different, a small studio.
So, they were so scared, they called me like that, so I had to say, “Never mind, I don’t know, I’m not home. I can’t help you, just move, all of you. All of you move up, stay in my house.” So, they had to abandon their apartment, their small room, whatever. They went to my house and stayed while I was not there. That, as if not enough, even the police sometimes came with a dark light. They came and turned off the light, only a small light, and then went quietly alone. They tried to open the gate. And I don’t know who sometimes broke the gate and sometimes broke the door. And then sometimes burned my garden, wanted to fume me out. All kinds of things happened, not just the neighbors. And as if not enough, he called the police all the time. I think the police must have been fed up with him because that mountain’s very high, some small police cars cannot come in. They had to walk up. They must have been cursing him. And later, maybe he had reported a lot more times, they didn’t come. There was nothing there, what to do? You keep walking up the mountain, you sweat like hell. Excuse my French.
So, I don’t know if the police came or not. Maybe the police didn’t come anymore; they were tired of climbing the mountain. That mountain, if you have a normal car, you can’t climb up. You have to have almost like four-wheel drive stuff, very strong power. Otherwise, it doesn’t climb up, because it’s very steep and very sharp curves, steep and sharp, and not one. So maybe the police were fed-up, didn’t come to check out anymore. After many times, they were scared. They were also scared to climb the mountain. Sometimes they stayed all night in front of my house – scared everybody. All my attendants were so scared. We couldn’t even communicate by telephone because we worried they’d hear us. And then we couldn’t take the dog(-people) out because they stayed right in front of the house where the street is. That’s a private street. I have to take the dog(-people) out. So, we had to stay there, and all the dog(-people) had to hold it all night.
